Beneficial Thinking

I've been told that I think too much as if it's a bad thing to be a thinker. I do think quite a bit and it has served to be both beneficial and detrimental in different instances. Because I am a thinker I see the deep when others see the surface, I understand what others find confusing, and I see a perspective that they haven't a clue about. I go to deep places which makes me capable of experiencing a level of passion, intimacy, and revelation beyond belief once I let myself freely flow in that place. I believe that the issue is not about how much I think, its important how I think. How I think can either lead me to beautiful places and bring clarity or it can lead me to a place of despair and confusion. Lately, the more I think the more I see who I really am, what I deserve, the consequence of my actions, my worth. I see what I really want and what I do not want. Most importantly I see just how simple things are and the ways I complicate them. I see that I really shouldn't have a care in the world. I care when I should be resting, I fear what ifs when I should be sure of what is. I reject pain when I should embrace it, I hold on when I should let go. Simply put I can see myself and my need to rest in something greater than me, something greater than my weaknesses, flaws and failures, greater than the opinions and thoughts of others, even greater than my own self perception. That something for me is actually a someone........Grace a.k.a Jesus. I am on a continuous journey of learning to rest in Grace. Part of this resting journey includes guarding not how much I think but how I think. So far my journey has included a few ups and downs, twists and turns, pleasant and unpleasant surprises, and a few emotional bruises. Nevertheless, I must say that the experience is absolutely beautiful because the journey of resting in Grace will always reveal how much you are loved and absolutely adored by God...........amazing and quite beneficial. I think I'll think on that some more. :-)


j.h.